Freitag, 30. Dezember 2022

Collection of the Night

This be the Verse

By Philip Larkin
They fuck you up, your mum and dad.   
    They may not mean to, but they do.   
They fill you with the faults they had
    And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
    By fools in old-style hats and coats,   
Who half the time were soppy-stern
    And half at one another’s throats.

Man hands on misery to man.
    It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
    And don’t have any kids yourself.

 

Love Again

By Philip Larkin
Love again: wanking at ten past three   
(Surely he’s taken her home by now?),   
The bedroom hot as a bakery,
The drink gone dead, without showing how   
To meet tomorrow, and afterwards,
And the usual pain, like dysentery.

Someone else feeling her breasts and cunt,   
Someone else drowned in that lash-wide stare,   
And me supposed to be ignorant,
Or find it funny, or not to care,
Even ... but why put it into words?
Isolate rather this element

That spreads through other lives like a tree   
And sways them on in a sort of sense   
And say why it never worked for me.   
Something to do with violence
A long way back, and wrong rewards,   
And arrogant eternity.

In the mood for Love

by me

This woman with her beauty so divine
Has made me wish that I was blind
For when I look upon her face
My heart is filled with lustful rage

She wears her curves like a queen
My fantasies are never seen
The only thing I want to do
Is take her in my arms and screw

She moves like a goddess in the night
My carnal desires take flight
To take her in passion's embrace
Would put me in an eternal daze

I'd pleasure her in every way
My carnal nature would not stay
And leave her screaming my name in bliss
Until I'm spent and she's dismissed.





Samstag, 7. März 2020


If you don't ask questions then I won't ask why
There's a million different stars in the big, big sky
Like a million different waves in the big, big sea
A million different dreams lie ahead of me
But as I lay out on the kitchen floor
There's a million different stories banging at my door
But the only one I want is the one with you
You make me electric on the avenue

But you're 3, 000 miles away, 3, 000 miles away
And I don't ever want to see you surrender
And I never want to say goodbye
Cause the last thing I remember
is a tear falling from your eye
as you flew into the Berlin sky
into the bright blue Berlin sky


The way she moves is like a rolling sea
She's got more love than she will ever need
She's like a midnight bolt of electricity
And when she asks I say I do indeed
Have a little more time, but more on my mind
but what's inside is just a waste of time
Oceans may break the walls of your shore
Rivers might change the shape of your floor


But you're 3, 000 miles away, 3, 000 miles away
And I don't ever want to see you surrender
And I never want to say goodbye
Cause the last thing I remember
Is a tear falling from your eye
as you flew into the Berlin sky
into the bright blue Berlin sky

Now that my heart says something,
Why did your heart say nothing?

Mittwoch, 27. Februar 2019

Nostalgia Vielleicht Blues

Nostalgia

Suspended in nostalgia
I find your name hanging in my memories
I fill myself up with your gaze
Oh what a maze you've put me in

I spy with my little eye
Your wide eyes that take me time traveling
It feels like, swimming, swimming with my eyes closed
Nose to nose, you just, you just fucking know

Oh, remind me of your name again
As you take me on that train again
Back to the pavements that we walked, and walked
Oh, the drugs that made us talk and talk

And I'd take you dancing, I'd take you round and round
I'll lead you to the hilltops - and I take you on the ground
I may be daydreaming, but I'll be wondering what it's like
To be under your skin

'Til I get in
Until you let me out
Until you see my insides
Until you're inside out, I'll
Lick my wounds, feels like I've had them since the womb
Sing myself a tune, fall back and swoon

And I'll take you dancing, I'll take you round and round
I'll lead you to the hilltops - and I take you on the ground
I may be daydreaming
Oh what a feeling
Daydreaming about you




Vielleicht vielleicht

Es ist so leicht ehrlich zu dir zu sein
Es ist so einfach, wenn ich sage, „nein“
Oder: „Ich bin noch nicht so weit“
Du gibst mir Zeit
Und du bist süß
Wie du aussiehst, wenn du genießt
Dass es im Winter endlich schneit
Du magst jede Jahreszeit
Und morgens muss ich lächeln
Weil mich deine Küsse wecken
Und dann merk ich, es ist leicht
Weil dir so wenig reicht
Du gibst mir Zeit

Und dann denk ich, dass es vielleicht, vielleicht
Für immer so bleibt
Und dann denk ich, dass es vielleicht, vielleicht
Für immer so bleibt
Ja, es ist leicht, leicht, leicht, leicht
Ja, es ist leicht, leicht, leicht, leicht

Es ist so schön
Dir zuzusehen
Wenn du duschen gehst
Und dann vor mir stehst
Und sagst, es wird ein langer Tag
Und wenn du mich dann fragst
Was wir heut Abend machen
Und wir zwischen Küssen lachen
Dann merk ich, es ist leicht
Weil dir so wenig reicht
Du gibst mir Zeit

Und dann denk ich, dass es vielleicht, vielleicht
Für immer so bleibt
Und dann denk ich, dass es vielleicht, vielleicht
Für immer so bleibt
Ja, es ist leicht, leicht, leicht, leicht
Ja, es ist leicht, leicht, leicht, leicht

Weil du siehst was ich sonst niemandem zeige
Ich kann dir erzählen was ich mir selbst verschweige
Und ich will, dass es für immer so bleibt
Und ich glaube, das geht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Und ich will, dass es für immer so bleibt
Und ich glaube, das geht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Vielleicht, vielleicht
Vielleicht, vielleicht



Berlin Blues Song

It ruffled up my feathers
And it barked on up my tree 
When suddenly it seemed all the fingers 
Were pointing on up at me 
And the footsteps in the sand 
Were all getting washed up by the sea 
To leave me in stitches Bursting at the seams 
Bursting at the seams 
When the sun came out to greet me
I only saw the wolves from my dreams 
This is my Berlin Blues song 
Sometimes life can get a little rough 
But it won't be long 
Cause it just makes me strong 
And there is a place where we one day will delve 
Where there's no more walking on eggshells 
Where ideas are for free, oh it's the place to be 
Your great mind's no longer the minority 
And I'll see you there with your hands in the air 
Where the canvas is bare 
And there's no more despair 
And your third eye will stare 
Nothing can compare 
There's not one care 
And I'll see you there
I'll see you there 
I'll see you there 
I'll see you there 
And I'll see you there



Epiloge

And you never lost your head,
even when you were giving head.
If you tell me that you are not here,
I'll follow the trail of your tears

Now i understand,
what you tried to say to me,
how you suffered for your sanity

Donnerstag, 17. Januar 2019

Why are you here again?

Special girl, unfortunately it's an integrity thing. You may think i play games, or that i still have hope. But i assure you i don't - and no matter what will happen, it won't change anything for me, do you get it? Not the fact, that i will have to watch, to live alone, to fight my mother, to be born a hundred years too early or late. I don't care if it's impossible, cause it's not the possibility that matters, it is always just you. And i picked. To me you are perfect. You are perfect from the top of your silly nose till the last cell of your pinky. I am so sorry, but this is just what i am, and i know what i am, since i know you. This decision is all of what encapsulates me and i don't care if you or anybody doesn't understand it, or calling me a dreamer, I just cannot choose not to love you with all what my heart gives me to, and i cannot choose against my morals, my sanity and myself. And i will never hate you.

Edit on the 26.01:
Now that i read it again, it sounds kinda cheesy and cringy. But as it is basically what i mean, i'm gonna stand up to that little mistake and leave it like it is.

Donnerstag, 13. Dezember 2018

Baby Sister

Baby Sister, won't you spare a little time,
I know you've still been working from eleven till nine.
Flippin' nickles, flippin' quarters and dimes.
Don't wanna hear it...
Putting price tags on your spirit.

Baby Sister, you're gonna end up getting hurt,
No one's getting heartache from the wrinkles on your shirt.
Oh yeah yeah you're gonna get hurt.

Baby Sister, what time will you be walking in,
Spent the days with whiskey and bottles of gin.
Oh yeah yeah i know where i've been.

You've got your reasons,
They're changing with the seasons.
I know it's hard to keep it straight.
But i could argue that it's harder for the one who has to wait.

Don't wanna hear it, puttin' price tags on your spirit.
Baby Sister, you're gonna end up getting hurt,
I know it's gettin' harder from the wrinkles on your shirt.
Oh yeah yeah you're gonna get hurt.
Baby Sister.